Chris was home for a day and is off again to Florida. I’m so proud of him for working so much and on better and better projects and for now, it’s okay that he is gone. I miss him but it’s okay. This is good as in the past, I’d get either really needy or angry and pull away when we reunited. It’s nice (to say the least) to feel peaceful instead.
I was in the bliss place again– actually bliss sounds too big; it’s more a peaceful, lack of striving or fretting or judging place. Then I talked about this "state"with the brain trust (a group of amazing peers I meet with to share our business challenges and questions) and damn if when I got off our call, I felt no bliss. Bliss gone. Over and out. Back to smaller me. Yes, she said, expansion and contraction, yes, it’s all happening in God, is God, and she’s said, I’m so curious why talking about it changes it –it’s happened twice now. Anybody had a similar experience???
On my way to Artfest tonight — going to take Lilly with me for the opening stuff tonight, and then drive back tomorrow early and stay with my friend Mary for the next two nights. I’m feeling some anxiety about going. I am feeling completely dry and cut off from art juju, and feel off about leaving Lilly, even though it is only for two nights… and I’m only an hour away.
It’s hard not to have a preference for peaceful ease being over worryish gopher mind. But that’s the point, isn’t it?
6 responses so far ↓
1 Lain Ehmann Mar 28, 2007
Worryish gopher mind, I love that!
I wonder if when we try to analyze the “bliss” state, we move to another part of our brain. Instead of being in the here and now part, we move into the analytical “why and how” part, and that in and of itself takes us out of our bliss state.
Hmmm.
xoxox
Lain
2 Marian J. Vance Mar 29, 2007
Gone With the Wind —- It was the first time I learned that a woman could be strong.
3 Spike Mar 30, 2007
What Laine said–to talk about “it” you must analyze and define “it” and then you must translate your analysis and definition into language. Language by its very nature is limiting, bliss by its very nature is limitless. When you push a limitless thing into a limited container, by necessity you cut parts of it off. And by the time you’ve narrowed down exactly what “it” is, you sliced off so many parts that you’re back to small self again.
Spike
4 cindy Mar 31, 2007
you asked: “I’m so curious why talking about it changes it –it’s happened twice now. Anybody had a similar experience???”
sometimes i believe we have experiences that are not meant to be shared. for me i have had what i call “holy moments” or holy experiences. sometimes to share them- takes away their specialness. not to get all spiritual, but scripture says not to cast your pearls before swine. (not that your brain group or anybody else is a pig!)its just that some experiences only are meant for us and god to know about. that way they retain their specialness.
just my 2 cents.
cindy
5 Jennifer Louden Mar 31, 2007
Bliss by it’s very nature is limitless! Thank up Spike for that– that’s so utterly helpful. And Cindy, yes not sharing is the same idea, isn’t it!
6 Michelle Apr 2, 2007
when I experience bliss it comes from a place deep within my heart. When I talk about it or think about it my attention travels back up into my head – head experience/heart experience.
Michelle