Malpensa aiport, Milan, Italy
The hard hug
"Where have you been? I have to call them, they just left!"
He couldn’t find us, had waited an hour.
Van with crew came back.
I simmered with anger. He slowly came back.
We connected by the time we got to Lake Como – the familiar dance.
Within an hour, how can we ever seperate again.
Held in his arms again
Whole

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The crew dance:
Who are these people? Why do I have to spend time with them?
Oh, okay, they are nice people only mostly terribly young and steeped in a popular culture I no longer believe in
Oh yeah, connect with my heart, bow to THE heart, there it is, compassion and the remembrance- it isn’t about me

In the hotel where the talent and producers (not us) stayed, I started to direct and interview, had to clap my hand over my mouth
Not your job, Jen, you are off duty
When did I become so all knowing? Shut up!
My daughter is flirted with my Gusieppe who runs the hotel – she is charming and he invites her back for her honeymoon to stay.

Villa del Balbianello
Isola Comanica – seven course dinner, same served since 1947
Boating around the lake on steam boat

Lilly and I are resting in the room, Chris is out shooting, he returns and the instant he opens the door, can’t even see him, I know something is wrong. He says, "Take my hands." We do.
  "Jen, your dad has had a heart attack. You need to call home."

Dad had a serious heart attack just as we were taking off from New York for Milan but it took Mom four days to find us. She had thrown out the phone number from weeks before and I had stupidly not checked to be sure she had it.

Lilly and I left as soon as we could. Twenty four hours of travel later, including two hours on the tarmac at JFK, starting my period on the plane while enduring the middle seat, Lilly catching a cold, and coming home at 1:30 am to realize we were locked out of our house (Lilly found an open window!!!) and finally, home to be with Dad at the end time.

My thoughts are all over the place, my heart empty aching full

Send thoughts for a peaceful passage and for courage for me and my family.