Okay, she’s one of my closest friends and I just now find her blog? Can you say out to lunch, as in I certainly am? Read her latest entry for another great perspective about winning- or not- life’s lottery.
Meanwhile, over here in writing land, the Inner Organizer book continues to slide and slip and morph… what was supposed to be (okay, perhaps it’s time to let go of that assessment) an easy, fun, quick project of adapting the excellent existing material has turned into a soul searching what-the-heck-am-I-writing, what-is-it-that-women-are-doing-to-live-our-
lives-differently and how do I put it into words?
Did I mention my deadline is in two weeks?
I am very proud to say I am rooted in love and gratitude and gently staying there, because writing a book about organizing your life from the inside out in a state of freaking out would be too much of a disconnect to bear. Authenticity will be my guiding light.
I’ve been sequestering myself to write, in the room over our garage, which used to be my office, then was a Barbie paradise where the girls could build vast worlds and leave them for weeks, is sometimes a guest room, and is currently my liminal space where I sit on the futon couch, the dog curled up beside me, until she gets sick of me petting her and hightails it for a nearby chair, and I try to find the thread of this book.
I don’t know what the hell is going to emerge from this but I’m off for another day of exploring, with a break for my weekly yoga class.
Wish me well. Pray, chant, do a writing dance, send good thoughts and brilliant ideas… I certainly need them.
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6 responses so far ↓
1 Helga Feb 16, 2006
I am picturing you now: In a room still infused with the joy and imagination of Barbie paradise, cradled by something soft, touching a living creature, listening to your authenic self, while tenderly held by many and holding yourself in a grounded but gently floating space of love and gratitude. Not one useless thing could come from such a place! Share them all! Courage!
2 Marilyn Feb 17, 2006
I’ve been without an internet connection for a month…just roaming around, getting caught up on people’s lives… Hope the writing’s going well.
3 sue walsh Feb 17, 2006
Thanks for the referral to your friend’s blog…found some really good information on failure…she suggests that you look a the degree of resilence, humor and humility required to go with the flow…so maybe Jen you are fighting the flow instead of going with it….
take care
sue
4 Molly Gordon Feb 17, 2006
Hey friend!
Did you really not know I was blogging? Sheesh, I would’ve thought the whole world knew. Well, at leaast the part that revolves around me.
I appreciate sue’s comment about my views on the resilience, humor, and humility needed to “go with the flow.” And, knowing you, Jen, [I assess] you have humongous helpings of humor and humility. And resilience? Well, darn it all, you can do your best and sometimes life still happens.
That is to say, we learn a lot about self care and foundation on this path (and we learn a lot of it from YOU), but the challenge is more complex than just filling the well. Life goes on, and suddenly your parents are becoming dependent, your children are becoming independent, and your body (hello, menopause!) has developed a mind of its own. (Don’t know about you, but it’s a regular party over here.) So, while I expect that fully enlightened critters do, in fact, get to the point where they always go with the flow (because they are One with it), until we get THERE, I think we’ll always have experiences when we not only are not gloing with it, but we’re damned if we can find the direction it is flowing.
So carry on, my friend. Your deep commitment to inner knowing combined with your passionate ambition to share what you learn may always bring you to this edge. I hope so, because each time you get beyond an edge, the rest of us get to benefit.
Here’s to you, Jen!
Molly
5 Shaboom, Inc. - Blog Feb 17, 2006
Resilience, Flow, and give me a break
There’s value in the principles and practices that get tossed around the Cultural Creative playing field, but often the value is dulled by lack of context or precision. In other words, let’s be careful about what we attribute to our friends, ac…
6 Jennifer Louden Feb 18, 2006
One of the things I’m noticing as I read all the great comments is how hard it is for me to take in the wonderful ideas, love, and grand support… and how each day a little more gets in there, into my heart, and I tell myself, “It really is okay.”
Thank you.
I write this sitting between two dogs on my friend’s couch… the book might be starting to come together… then why am I over here blogging??