These days I’ve got these intentions or life insights (I know, I wrote about both in the Life Organizer but today I’m not sure which is which:
Be it instead of asking why am I being it
Feel it rather than think it
Do it rather than analyze why I’m going to do it
Don’t commit to anything big or long term
Don’t belabor decisions; instead float in my
business, see what attracts my energy, float my
energy into my business and follow what energizes
me
Be on the look out for where I confuse compassion with wanting to be a nice girl everybody likes
Stick to a daily schedule that includes meditation
and yoga and walking to calm my overactive
monkey mind
Math Buddha/J. Louden
Found this today at Caroline Allen’s writing blog: "My policy now: don’t
think. Act. From action comes inspiration. Only then do the muses show
up, line up to propel you on your way…" I always tell students/clients that: write don’t think about writing.
I’ve been thinking about possible creative projects more than doing them and this has utterly wore me out– I hate being worn out! I detest it. I find it unattractive and icky, and fascinating that it a product of my sticky washing machine mind–not the reality of say, shaping and baking bricks in the New Dehlia sun for 12 hours a day.
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Which brings me to my most BIG insight – I have no idea how to receive! Oh doesn’t that just piss me the hell off? One of our Writer’s Spa participants did a reading of me and she kept seeing me pushing her away saying, "No, I’m fine. Really I’m fine." I’m so flabbergasted by that: I’m strong and independent, it’s totally my nature, and yet because I’ve never been one of those women who take care of everybody else and hover and neglect themselves AND because I’m great at asking for help, gifts, attention, compliments, I thought I was great at receiving.
But no! I’m holding everybody (especially the Divine??) off.
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Final thought:
Life waits patiently to be noticed, ever notice that?
4 responses so far ↓
1 Lisa Aug 30, 2007
Welcome back, Jen. Float on! Much love, Lisa
2 krissie Sep 1, 2007
decided to re write my post which typepad deleted!!……..I have all your books except this latest one – havent seen it in OZ just yet!
about intentions – I think its like holding a butterfly, the more you grasp at it and try to get a tighter grip the more it escapes us….don’t know if that makes sense? Intentions are just that…hold them lightly in the palm of your hand and let them go free and follow!
3 Anonymous Sep 3, 2007
h-o-l-y cow, am i on the same page. i have been struggling with this issue and lately been called to actually DO just the very things you mentioned…ACT and get out of my head! furthermore, i was also told i do not yet love myself, nor allow myself to receive love or anything good for that matter, as i do not feel “worthy.” you can imagine that after seven years of trying to better myself and follow this path, this intense soul-searching, these techniques, these teachings, this work, to be told that …yes, really pissed me off!!!! And to be told that because i am stuck in my head, and fear and the future, i am unable to let inspiration and creativity in, and let go of the fear…therefore i am keeping abundance away both at work, and at home…while going through a difficult time….so, WOW thanks for the affirmation there, Jen!!! SO needed it as i am struggling to stay empowered and OUT OF MY HEAD!
Love,
Jod
4 Jodie Sep 3, 2007
jen, we are on the same page once again. i also have been being told to ACT instead of stay in my head, which keeps me stuck in the fear and anxiety….VERY hard to do, although amazing blessings usually accompany the journey….furthermore, i too was told something that pissed me off…after seven years or so of being on this self-searching, soul-searching, spiritual path, doing all that i thought i had done, i was still told recently that i do not love myself, nor do i let love in…i am not allowing myself to RECEIVE anything good-abundance, love, etc. because i still feel “unworthy!” Imagine how that hit me!!! UGH!
i have these amazing things going on right now with working for two life coaches and this past week in and of itself TOTALLY affirmed, in every possible way, that I am to become a coach, too, and in the meantime, my hardest hurdle ever continues to roar in my face with ferocious warning that if I don’t heed all this, my dreams will never full come true, hence, letting love and abundance in, getting to point of action instead of stewing in indecisive fear forever…..
xo,
jodie