I had hoped to blog while I was helping to shape the Creativity Spa — it was a miracle which bloomed from and within the hearts of nineteen crystalline feminine hearts — and while I so often thought of you all there were, in the end, no words that would come to me to express this sweep of life enlivened. The life force nurtured, fed, allowed to flow, to flower, to erupt by these courageous lionesses.
The lesson for me teaching is, again!, how very, very hard and very, very foreign — at first — this time apart, this retreat, seems — and how, within an hour or a day or two — how utterly precious and vital and essential this time apart is. We had several women attend the retreat who had never been on a retreat before — one beautiful powerhouse started the retreat saying "This kind of thing is probably not for me" and by Tuesday proclaimed, "This is really not for me" and by Thursday, she was singing, "This is for me!" Or another woman who realized she had taken a Bodhisattva at twenty-one when she returned from death to continue her life in service of so many others. The stories — they are not mine to tell but there are mine to keep in my heart.
May you know how precious you are.
3 responses so far ↓
1 Carla May 28, 2006
Knowing how richly and fully you give of yourself during retreats, I couldn’t imagine how you’d manage to post as well! It’s strange, but I can feel in my body that post-retreat glow right alongside all of the retreat participants re-entering their lives. Such an exquisitely delicate passage. Thanks for helping us accept our preciousness, and welcome home!
2 Leonie May 31, 2006
woman you are doing such precious beautiful soul work in this world,
i really feel this.
and i understand your words on a deep level, having just spent three days in retreat with two women staying here and the three of us going to a goddess workshop and sharing and healing and growing and loving and spilling.
blessings to you
leonie
3 Susan May 31, 2006
Jen, just wanted to write in and make a heart connection again after the retreat. I just now read your blogs prior to the retreat and wanted to share with you how much I have been feeling my heart torus enlarged during and since the retreat! In a moment of intense heart and eye contact with Camille in our circle, I became aware of my heart energy growing double to fill my entire torso.
It’s so wonderful to feel the gift of new heart connections that you and Camille created the opportunity to grow. It’s been some time and some life lessons since I’ve so felt my inside energies grow with the seeds of this kind of love! On the plane home I was reminded to keep growing the love inside by remembering loving thoughts of every one of us. I could feel myself glowing with such warm thoughts – and it must have been showing because I had the most gorgeous man starring at me repeatedly on the plane!
Catching dinner in Seattle airport between planes, I wrote out some of my good memories of each woman. For our “So not me!” gem, my admiration was “a force of nature to be reckoned with!!” And when my lovefest was all out on the page Spirit reminded me “We are all one” and to take in that I am all of these lovely things too. In the afterglow of the retreat I received this compliment like a heart-enlarging-cloud surrounding, infiltrating and “we-ve got your back” imagining. My heart tingles with each re-imagining! Hmmmm….
Immense Gratitude for making it all possible. Thank you for The Calling – you nourished my Longing well!
Susan
PS: Since returning my Higher Self message has seemed to take the next step and is saying “Time to (patiently) grow my garden!!” YEAH!