As one of the recipients of a gift of a weekend with you, I can say personally that you do do powerful things that change lives. I think of that weekend every day at work (a postcard showing the entrance to the center and the words “peace” hanging bring me back to that tranquil weekend, and remind me of the greatness that was us women coming together as strangers and leaving as something more, new beings that had blossomed during our time together.

Thank you. Own your power. You are awesome.

We are points of arrow leading the way so others can follow. Follow and then lead (like the geese). Taurus is about value…valuing that differences. Honoring. Being willing to be a point of the arrow- bringing my valuable resource- creativity, teaching, singing quilting, dancing to the community I serve.

This always leads me back to my connection to nature and creating. At this time of year we are either shouting or sprouting. Even in the midst of my own drama I am shouting for joy…

This morning I saw the hedge is finally blooming in our back yard. I can’t begin to share with you how much joy those small white flowers give me. A sign of new life after the battering of hurricane Wilma and the radical pruning of our gardener. South Floridians have had to see our plants cut back to the ground in order to grow anew. Sprouts.

Reminding me Nature always responds, she always seeks a balance…grows even after destruction, coming back again and again. She greets me, as the moon greets me showing the way from dark to light. In new ways. Collectively we are in the cycle of new growth, Springtime-a month of stability to support that new growth by connecting with my inner earth and outer earth- Mother Nature. Two humble feet firmly planted on the ground. I wish you enough at this new moon in Taurus.

“Because I have this giant fear that I’m going to be ‘asked’ or summoned to do something I really, really don’t want to do. Something too big”

AND

“To not utterly honor my role in the process, to constantly downplay it to myself, may belittle their courage.”

I’m currently struggling with the issue of downplaying my own power, and it’s helpful for me to think about it in terms of not only my fears but also the impact that those fears have upon those I teach or work with.

I do have this HUGE fear of failing, and failing BIG TIME, as I contemplate celebrating my power rather than just feeling lucky when I do something meaningful or create conditions where transformation occurs for myself or someone else. It’s definitely safer not to have any expectations of grandeur. But… I don’t think I’m satisfied with that anymore because I have so much more to offer the world. The small streams of power bubbling just under the surface of my life are starting to look for an outlet.

I so deeply appreciate the opportunity to read about the day-to-day struggles that others have with these kinds of issues, and I’ve learned so much during the time I’ve been reading this blog. I think that joining the conversation may be one way that I can start finding an outlet for that power to burst forth.

i do not fear my gifts nor my ego. i give openly, willingly, vulnerably whatever i’ve got. and i give a little disclaimer, “thats what i’ve got”.
fear of being egoic keeps me small-doesn’t ever serve me, it only results in manipulation of my goals(tweaking them smaller when each fear speaks up).
i rock, and i can proudly say it! even when i’m down i’m doing the best i can. sometimes whining is what i’ve got. i must embrace that.
how would shrinking behind my gifts help them fully shine? humility is one of those virtues that is usually misunderstood. my rule is if humility is on the table for discussion, you likely don’t lack it to a fault…

a question i want to ask is how do i measure the quality of my work? my answer is simply “trust”-knowing that the work i do as a mom, artist, wife, friend is enough. as my world keeps changing each day, i know that i also continue to change and grow with my challenges. when it ceases to be enough, i trust will receive a cue and know a change is coming through.
my dad once said to me, as i struggled over the task of my work, “don’t think about it, just DO it!” worrying about whether i’m being humble enough is just a waste of valuable energy. the work is too important to squander on fear of anything.
you have such a wonderful uninflated style about you. people trust you because you are not a puffed up guru promising anything but GORGEOUS questions.
the work you do is so valuable, so fine, so lifechanging for so many women. it is OKAY for you to know this and keep doing it. and it is okay for you to stay open to your next creative opportunity. and when asked to do something that will take you beyond your limit, with all of the grace, awareness and eloquence that you already have….you can say, pass.
**i don’t come here as often as i’d like, so if i’m in the dark about your process or coming off as a big know-it-all, i apologize!** …its what i’ve got.

BIG LOVE, p